It’s the morning of my first performance of Love You So Much and as I write these words, my heart is pounding almost out of my chest! Sure, it’s normal to have jitters before a big event but it feels like more is at stake. To be entirely honest, I NEED to do this show. It is tied up with my feelings of deserving to be in the world and be loved. I am sharing my inner self to a world which doesn’t generally approve of such activity. It would rather squash any true sentiment which acknowledges vulnerability and weakness. Or so it seems to me at this moment that I’m about to feed myself to the lions! And yet beyond all the gloomy demons, there could be glorious sunshine. So I’m plodding on down the road, my heart on my sleeve and in my throat at the same time. Hoping for the best!